After a DM conversation that sheikah and I probably found a lot funnier than it was, I came to one of those seriously annoying crashing realizations about why I'm having so much trouble coming up with anyone to app in February, for either game.

Incoming!

No matter who I choose, I won't get what I'm looking for.

So. There's that. Feels good to finally have the puzzle solved.

Not going anywhere for the near term, or making any sweeping changes to go with the realization save maintaining the status quo for now, and finding other things to occupy my evenings. ATUF and my new foray into iMovie are filling the bill nicely.

In non-RP news, I've found the true blessing of working from home.

Because of the impending Snowpocalypse, I left work at noon to finish out the day here. And because I was home, I was able to take a break from work and make chili for dinner and then just after I logged off, I mixed up the cornbread and put that in to bake.

This is stuff I can't do if I get home at 6 after a 30-40 minute commute.

And now my whole house smells like chili and the snow's starting to fall and stick to the ground.

Pretty awesome!

There are a lot of things I should be doing right now. A lot of productive things like grocery lists, scanning pictures, cleaning, writing of an RP nature.

( navel gazing about RP )

tl;dr - I have errands to run, house to clean, and very probably some decisions to make.

In other news, I love Bed Bath & Beyond (and their very fluid return policy) because it means I no longer have a nine year old Dyson. I now have one that made that 9 year old look like a broom in comparison...all without having to sell an internal organ.

Morning spent alternately depressing myself with reading ads that sound hella promising, only to find it's a community setup that hasn't been touched since October, or one that requires all posts/comments to be 2+ detailed paragraphs long. Ugh. I'm all for prose in tags, but that's a little over the top for me. Am further guessing that the Stand/Boulder game has been abandoned for whatever reason (though I suspect lack of character apps as well as a glitch in the logic played a part). Blarg. It was a nice dream.

Got a little shot of adrenaline when I realized Zach had gone back to sleep rather than get ready for paintball and had 15 minutes to shower and assemble his gear. There was a happy little whirlwind of OMGWHEREISMY...? But he's off, and happily getting welts all over his body for the day.

I am off to brave the mall today and hopefully get a shitload of Christmas shopping done: read: all of it. I'd love to get that off my plate. Probably help if I actually write out a list of what I need to get and for whom.

Relatedly, stocking stuffers for 16/19 year old boys are getting harder and harder to find. After razors and condoms, what else is there???

Am going to make something Christmassy tomorrow to take into work to try and get myself into the holiday spirit a little more as well as provide something fun because things be tense in the department (Director is reaping the rewards of a ton of BOGSATs resulting in what will probably be missed deadlines because our IT department seriously sucks if not sat upon - and the VP ain't happy.)

Need to force myself to put down the DS in the evenings and read instead. I've got a TBR list that's topping out at 45 books right now and I want to read them ALL. Downtime probably wouldn't bother me as much if I was lost in those worlds.

Also need to stop being lured by the "Customers who bought this also bought..." thing on Amazon. I've got all these great books on my TBR...then get lured by a new shiny. Bah.

Peace out, all.

Brought to you by the letters S N B and Insanejournal.

Wow. One night, four deletion notices from Insanejournal, and a thousand memories of one of my favorite games ever. Ron. Zach. Oliver. And my precious Leila.

Then a few nights ago...my Maggie and my Jason.

And I find myself missing old games tonight, old voices. I miss Thalia and Mara from Metempsychosis even though that game was abandoned 6 years ago. I miss Billy and Luna, 7 years past.

...and since this is taking a really wrong turn, I'm just going to stop there.